it had made me totally realised. i cant be selfish that much. like i told bacin, i dont want to lose things that had all along made me happy just for tings that are gonna make me happy as in now. its really time. until when? ive had enough of it. let it be.

i can never find all these important person in my life anywhere and anytime. my family, hisham, bacin mazuin, glads lin, fila , marly, mizah and not forgetting shafie and karim. and right now im missing those times we had fun. times are different now. we all have commitments i agree. but still ppl, lets meet when we can okae? when we are free. lets be like last time.


having them is definitely what i want in my life. i no longer am available in their eyes i guess since im always busy as what they assumed. and i know the reason and thats what i meant, i guess its really time. i have to be a big girl now. tapi mmg dah besar pun hanyer tk besar badan. hehe.

when was the last time i went out with them. when was the last time i had quality time together. i myself cant recall. maybe this entry will make u guys think, si aishah ni dah knaper?

my family

the last outing we had, i was happy and really happy. maklumlah, susah sgt nk kluar as family seh. sentiasa ader benda lagi2 org mcm aku ni. alhamdullilah, fasting month is here, more family bonding. i love them alot. and adek, kakak rindu sgt kluar dgn kau. jgnlah luper kakak seh. kiter 2 siblings ajer seh. hehe. okae kakak like so emo. lets go out and shop like we used to okae? if adek beradek lain can be close why not us kn? anak sudin, anak sudin.. =)

my dear

syg, i noe its not easy for what we had gone through so far. esp time factor. time was always our enemy. i do still recall those times when ur in NS, and thats when i felt NS do sucks. it was totally a test for us. but now times are diff. we are learning to accomodate and adaptable to each other schdule. and dear, all the best in ur new working life. and congrats! i love u till i cant bear to lose you dear.

someone that i love with all my heart and irreplaceble... HISHAM

my bacin bestfren =)

i cant even recall when the last time i met u. and dont mention about quality time with u seh bacin. but due to certain 2 ppl with different commitment and status, they made me realised at the sight of them. like totally! and thats when it accumulates more to my decision now. insya-Allah tings will get better. and i miss u da bacin.

gurlfrens: lin, fila, marly, mizah

you ladies may tink im always busy. but im not. maybe u ladies noe im caught up with dance and stuff. but pls, im still here to make time for u. i still need u gerls. esp e gossips, bitching, jokes and merepeking. lin, u may not realise, that day, when i met u all alone, deep down inside i felt the pain. its really sakit hati. lagi2 kau fikir kiter busy. alamak rase dier. friendship is impt to me and so are u gurlfrens of mine. and mizah, tanks alot for that wonderful -surprised-peekaboo came to my dance show. im missing u ppl now!

shafie and karim:

these 2 peeps. are also ppl that i shared my ups and downs. im missing them also. i really felt happy and contented when i meet them. they always light up my life with their jokes and merepekness. fie n pub, krg ader ke ingat aku. aku tau ader. saper lah tk ingatkn aku yg cute ni kn. aperlah sgt kn.. hehe =)

i just have to be strong to face the decision im gonna make. maybe i can start with my mind, thinking of the benefits to it giving up that. but i gave up somting which i had oways like it. i guess the interest sink down.

its really time, BE STRONG.

its really hard to say goodbye to somting that u totally love to do!

goodbye dancing shoe..