Aisophistic

Thursday, March 13, 2008, just feel like, the COMPARISON @ 8:50 AM

apparently, im at work now and as usual. *ehem* shrugs shoulder. I am having my "free" time to blog again. how much i miss blogging though. a lil update to start it off.

monday was out with nassie dear. a lil shopping trip for her and myself. so nasarath, being the fickle minded lady, decided to carry along bags of stuff home. haha. some even impulse shopping done.

and so next, the usual date with my BACIN of course. the BACIN day. as usual, it was great. its been long since i last laugh that much especially when you "ehem" (recall incident at charles and keith) hahah. im laughing in my heart here. hehe. and yeah, at last we finally managed to grab the heels we want. i love it of course! i miss you already as oways! =) sygbacinsgt.

great outings with great ppl. and so now, im dead beat. very tired in fact. how i wish someone can massage me. im sure im gonna have a very good time for sure. and someone to pat me to sleep. i know, FAT HOPE! hah!

lately, im glad things are going well ( i think). glad to see the smile back again. even though maybe i was not such a help though. i have to admit that im quite possesive when it comes to my love ones. and with them, im very sensitive. its the love i have for them that makes me be like this. i guess i have to start learning and accept the fact that they are humans who have their own life. they want to be happy, and i may or not at all, be the only source of happiness. i guess seeing your loved ones happy, it beats the sadness and sorrow deep within rite?

i have to stop thinking
i have to stop dreaming
i have to stop controlling
in all, i have to stop being possesive.
stop it aishah.

contrary to how it appears to be, i sometimes wonder why is there a need of comparison of "single" and "attached". worst, if its among friends. i think it is a not a good practice and good habit to inculcate. i guess being single or being attached is a problem huh? when ur single, ppl will keep on asking so when, who and whatsoever. when ur attached, ppl will be thinking he/she is into their "other half" too much or so much, whatsoever. but i believe if there is no comparison made, things will get better. im not the kind of person who likes to compare myself and stating my "status" for sure. coz i believe it will hinders things in me. even in making new friends. to me, being attached, doesnt stop yourself from doing things but this time round its different as you have to take into account your partner's views and concerns too. but i like it that way. cause im an attention seeker when it comes to my loved ones. i am. im sure my close ones know that. i have to also admit that deep down im hurt by maybe indirect remarks or direct when im being "outcast" as im attached. wth. its either im too sensitive or maybe im expecting too much from ppl. and so when such remarks are made, i will just smile outside and crying inside. and so when ppl outcast, so you think who should i turn to? who? i dont even know. pathetic right? i know. but i have always hope things will get better for me. hope ppl realise that it actually hurt to "outcast" someone just because of his/her status. she maybe suffering if it comes from her friends, especially. but i cant be selfish thinking this way, it maybe due to e way i appear to be?
i shall not continue ranting here as it hurts me more thinking about things.

lets be happy, ppl. friday is coming! duh, tml. =)