i am seriously losing the momentum of blogging. besides, what can i do when i have no internet resources back at work when initially i had to. and so here i am perservering. and hope to get to use the net at night when i return home. i used to frequent my special ones blog, the close ones in particular to know whats the latest happening or updates of their life. it seems difficult now to even do that. thats why i keep on stressing the point that i am seriously missing out in a lot things.

i wonder how will it be if i enter the working world. sounds scary huh? wicked! but everyones goes through that even me. with more responsibilites and commitments coming our way, it will soon comes clear to us the meaning of earning a living. and yada yada yada.

anihoos, met up with my girls ytdy. lin n bacin. and definitely and as usual, lots of fun. head to town and had dinner. some random topics were discussed and bitching bout this current situation of our acquaintance. i wonder why its so easy for u to say such words to ppl. yah i agree, u do have the right to blog whatever you want. everyone who owns a blog have the right too. even myself. but at least think and take into consideration what the person will feel by u saying all that. if its me, i will not deal it that way, be mature enough and face the situation. and stop blaming ppl. on the surface, it totally looks like ur jealous. i dont know. nonetheless, i hope you realise dear friend, that it takes one courage and maturity to face up to a situation. and i guess stop telling ppl to grow up when i feel you should be the one. seriously u need one. that was just an epitomy of a current situation that me and my girls were talking about.
such irony. looks can be deceiving at times.

i had always bumped into this guy and yah i acknowledge him as Mr Bumper. and yah you guess it right. BINGO! i bumped into him again ytdy. and when going back from work every day, i will always bumped into him again. and yah coincidently hes from nyp also. but he should be graduating soon. i dont noe.

bumped into melissa and friends (deyi juniors of ours) how much they have grown. and wonderful memories with them. be it dance, some "girl fights" and some skaters thingy? bacin you should noe that. stop smiling. haha.

how pathetic i have to be, sneaking into nassie desk to use the internet and blogged or even scan thru some random blogs. but yah, you have to learn to be flexible and start exhausting ideas of how to kill time right?

my colleagues assumed that i end my ipp today. haha when im still left with around 2 weeks of attachment. very fast huh? yah it certainly is.
11 weeks payable- 9 weeks completed = 2 weeks balance on hand. hah!
i guess i will miss GIC SI when i leave. now i know that GIC played a significant role in Singapore' economy. And so indirectly saying, we are actually working for the country. GIC is featured in articles like Straits Times and even Today. and even today's today. about UBS. well managed huh? and alhamdullilah, when i end my ipp, i will proudly say i used to be attached at GIC. but some of my uncles and aunties will go like huh? and i will just mentioned capital tower lah. they will go like oh. haha tau tau.

and im sure my 2 weeks balance will be something i look forward to. as i can be "communicating" with bacin. bacin starting school next week. yah, i am jealous. i want to go back to school too. nevermind my time will come! hah!

and yah talking about the chalet it was great as always. all cousins alto some were not there. too bad they missed out the fun man. alto it was tiring, i certainly had lots of fun.
and i guess the gate of "womanhood" is opening as im getting weaker physically. my stamina's declining. i used to cycle very fast and longer distance but now no more.
my aunts and cousins had started their usuals- questions of my future, and yah asking me to take care of myself as they claimed im entering the "fragile" stage. they even recommend me "jamus" and "obat periuk". errr. but no way pls. i would rather not.
and irah, thanks for being the most "independent" toddler for my mums side, this niece of mine, loves to talk to herself and acts out movies that she can recall. and yah shes really good at it. how CUTE!

i dont know what is happening to me. i feel sad and happy at the same time for my cousin. im really feeling it as days goes by, seriously, i think she knows im very happy and excited for it. i know its in november. i am so eager to get my butt on gear to start assisting her in preparation of her wedding. i am already feeling all this, what about her man. shes going through it. i am very sure i know why i am feeling all this. shes my closest cousin in this world. and we grew up together since young. since real young. we went through alot together. and she have always been there when at times i need her. she had never failed to make me feel better. and she knows that i start withdrawing myself when she was engaged. she pointed it out before and the next minute, i was tearing. we are like twins, one yr apart. and i bet with you after her, they will start poking at me, so whens my turn and all. and as usual, i will just smile. silence treatment really works for this kind of situation.

i can even imagine i keep myself busy during the preparations not to think of it. keeps myself busy and be by her side 24hrs on the day of the solemnization. and tearing also when firman lafazkn akad nikah. insya-allah. its a feeling that u cant describe. in all, im pretty excited and aku doakan agar smua berjalan lancar and goes as what you planned alto how simple it will be. all e best!
and i have a problem, mr love call this the cepumas qn. i dont know what to wear on her BIG day. hah! but..

but tell me why?
tell me why i feel sad seeing her going to be someone's.
tell me why i feel im gonna lose her.
tell me why im missing her alot now.
tell me why i cant hug her and be there when the date was confirmed by both sides of bride and groom to be
tell me why i cant be there to congratulate her.
tell me why i feel that she is going to forget me.
and tell me pls, to stop feeling all this.
i guess i have to start adapting to it but i thought i had. maybe i was wrong.
sy, cepat eh, aku nk anak sedara, aku nk dier panggil aku mummy boleh? haha. okae sumpah aku mengarut skrg. chill babe. hah!

till then, take care ppl.
dont miss me too much okae :)
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