i spent the whole night talking to my cousin. it was never that way before. we are only used to chatting only. she was having her down moment, and i wanted to be there for her. how such guys do exist in this world. heartless jerks who only cares bout what he feels and super egoistic twisting ur words and putting the blame on the girl. how cruel such human can be. it was till super late night, hmmm morning. but besides sharing her down moments, we were also sharing things about our other cousins. in other words, we were actually bitching. hah! mcm suar! but this is when two ladies with the same thinking meet. dear cousin, i hope you are strong to face this, which i know you will. kalau tk strong, aper plak kn. saper tk kenal kau kn kn kn? this cousin of mine have made me do somthing that ive never do in my life. and she said, that my acting hmm or lying skills is good. and good for beginner. as she knows im not that kind of person. hah! i could still remember i said that line, mcm paham je si aishah ni. she msged me on the other hand, kau bkn aishah, kau dian. jgn luper! mampus! but as long as help you can lah! hah! 

dear cousin, i am really hoping that you will make decision based on your feelings, but not wholly ur feelings, but with a rational thinking. 

ytdy, dear husi passed me some of the pictures that we had for the mini surprise celebration we had for nas and fad. and i knew it was alot. but i was telling her, lets just pass it some other time! and also she told me that the video that we took, was too big. i guess its almighty big! hah! will get it from her tml. hope so =)

i was really multi tasking last night, accepting pictures from husi, chatting with my tarian member, who was coincidentally sharing her stuff too. and with my cousin on the other hand and the other hand working on my current "project". heh! 

hmm 5 more days to school! dread! 

tommorrow's project, so have to get the report done by tonight, but i've started. =)

it scares me at times, you wont know how i feel as like i mentioned, you will never be in my position. with mum on the other side kinda indirectly scares me more, so you think, how should i not think negative and also since when i only follow what i feel. there are reasons i felt this way, and i know, on the other side you might be thinking, its all my negativity. but think through, and i hope you will get what i mean.