to tell you the truth, im tired of all this. but i know i can never run from it. its an onus i have to carry no matter what. but with this, i thanks Allah for making me feel that i am still part of "it".

to tell you the truth, i just feel that you dont know the value of appreciating and what else the term, respect. cause you know why, you dont even have respect for yourself. its time for you to learn the hard way. sometimes, silence treatment is the best way. to let you learn the hard way by making mistakes. we have tried our level best. all our might. but noting seems to be getting in the way. cause you know why? you dont freaking care what we feel. all you care, is your own life. and your own selfish emotional feelings. oh come on, learn your lesson kid. cause you seems to be full of crap and nonsense. you are trying to be mature when hello, you are just freaking so young. learn your manners please, cause you aint gonna get anywhere with these spoilt attitude you are having. 

if you cant do it. at least do it for yourself. your future. who are you going to turn to, when in bad times. let me get this clear to you, nobody is going to help you until you help urself. nobody. no matter who you have, even your family or your boifren or whoever. at the end of the day, nothing stays, nothing is forever. ultimately you will be alone. whether you like it or not. 

im ashamed of you, honestly. but i know i have to face this. face the world, face everyone. but did you ever care what we feel, what we are facing. just think, i have exams just now and i slept late due to revision. and in the morning i have to wake up at 6 just to hear the "lullaby". i have a paper. 

i learn to focus and do the level best i can. i have to stay strong and be strong. cause no one is gonna give me the strength. only me. all alone. i have to have that believe that everything is gonna be alright. i have to be patient and keep on asking for HIS pedoman. and hope what we are doing is right. insya-allah. amin.

thanks love, bacin and lin for hearing me out. never failed to give me hope and believe. i appreciate that. i will stay strong cause i know i have to. i have to. 

it hurts, deep inside. its better to be hurt by external parties rather than your loved ones, the one that goes by the saying. blood is thicker than water. i reckon. 

berat mata memandang, berat lagi bahu memikul. 

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just feel like showing this picture. cause see at love, so mcm paham. 

helping out with the painting of my room and dads room. dad wants him to be his assistant. you sure you made the right decision? hah!