Aisophistic

Wednesday, September 24, 2008, fatigue-NESS @ 8:32 PM

i took half day leave today. it was heaven to have the sleep ive been yearning for. knock off at 12.30, rushing through the morning lot of cheques, which was approximately 120 cheques. head to geylang straight to get my stuff. manage to only get my kerongsang. going to geylang tml with love. to get my the other stuffs. i hope it will be there. maybe it was still quite early, and that explains the shop being closed. board the bus, and oh my, that was when i discovered i was actually very very tired. i slept in the bus till i cant even open up my eyes. it was real bad for me.

took my bath and landed myself on the bed. and woke up before buka. lucky there was dad who assist in preparing the buka dishes. it was just me and him. he thought i was sick and dont want to wake me up. thanks dad :D

im seriously very tired. its straining. and worst just now, i was taught a new task. so now, i have added on task. i check the mail, daily recon, major clearing of cheques by 4.30 pm daily and now this, mainframe thingy. its seriously taxing. i bloody have no time to even go to the loo. all i have was my lunch break which was used for surfing the net and at times i dont use up the 1 hr at all. they will ask me to do work.

but with this, i actually discover what i like and what i dont like. i hope to pursue in that. insya-allah. let HIM decide for me. this time round, im not gonna be the one deciding. just go with the flow. whatever it is, i must be strong to accept whichever way im going.

pretty excited for raya. coz plainly, im meeting my cousins. the gathering i always look forward to. the only thing. with uncles and aunties, catching up. seeing differences and also trying out the cookies. its the second raya without my grandma. to tell you the truth, i miss her so much. but i know allah lebih sayangkn dier. i can still feel her presence in my home, the last week before her last breath. she spent every single night here at my place. but at that time, no clues. i miss you nenek. aishah doakan semoga allah mencucuri roh nenek.

this weekend is reserved for baking cookies. raya cookies. after much contemplation, mum finally decide to bake it instead of buying. this is so not her. she will be so eager and even start baking comes the 2nd week of ramadhan. but this time round, its e last few days before raya. why? i really dont know why. hah!

this ramadhan was a challenge month for me. in terms of working and some personal stuff. i hope to still have the strength to go through this path of life with HIS way. ya allah, berikanlah hambamu ini kekuatan untuk menjalani segala ujian yg diturunkn oleh mu. amin. i believe every thing that happen to me and anyone around me, that shows that allah wants to test us. and to me, if HE decide to test me, i shall redha with it. everything happens for a reason.

long update? yeah. i just felt like letting my fingers typed out every single thing im feeling. but sometimes, what you are feeling at times, you just cant put into words.

oh yes, iftar with retrieveus finally! ytdy. went to mak's place at kembangan. then head on back to amk, our port. it was filled with endless laughter. even though i was really tired and dragged my way to work just now, the moment can never be erased of my mind. it was priceless. updating here and there.

i can see that working life is gonna be wicked. just look at me now. i dont even have time to meet my friends. how pathetic is that. its only possible when all get to meet. im so tired that i forgo what i feel, and shelve it away. not to think of it! it maybe due to purposely or just forget about it. all i can say at times, aishah dah malas and penat!

work again tml! dread! boring! :-/