honestly, its kind of creepy. i will be "hanging in the air" till july comes. i have a few concerns here. let me have the chance to state it one by one.

* If i dont get into any of the local university *

- i think i wont be shock. as i expected nothing. 

- i may have to start looking for full time jobs and seeing everything around me, it scares me to the maxxxxxxxxxxxxx! 

- i had forgone IRAS enforcement for "unknown result". issit worth it? i hope so.

- i may have to come back there and give it another shot. 

- i foresee myself waiting for months to get a job after rejected uni results

* If i get into local university *

- my parents will be happy for me. extreme glee of happiness. im sure about it.

- i will have to weigh the pros and cons of the course i am going to accept.

- i will have to make sure i wont repeat the same mistake when i took the diploma.

- i have to ensure that i have to endure and keep the passion going for 4 solid years. am i going to be that strong?

-  i have to be careful of my finance and support myself. 

so you tell me, its complicated right. im seriously feeling like shit. and its all of a sudden. i guess its due to me sitting at home, bumming. so my brain started to proactively making the initiative to hit the "start thinking" button. 

whatever its going to be "auto download" for me, i hope its a good one and the best decision. 

ya allah, berilah hambamu ini petunjuk dan kekuatan untuk melalui hari yang akan datang kelak. dengan keizinanmu, insya-allah. hambamu ini mampu bertahan dan redha dengan segala ujian mu. amin.